random thoughts

take time to reminiscence . before everything is too late.

attended my cousin’s funeral this morning. walked the final time with her. we went to the wake for 3 days this week and every time, it’s a reminder of how important health. she was a cancer patient for the past 4 years i think. the first time she was diagnosed with breast cancer, she was 42 and the doctor told her after her successful operation that the cancer will be back. true enough and it was attacking the other parts of her body. the last few times we saw her during our wedding, she looked perfectly fine and normal. who could’ve thought that she would lose the battle?

they said that she is tired from all the non stop chemo and now that the cancerous cells have spread to her brain, i think she was way stronger than most of the patients but the virus was stronger than she was.

the first thing that came to our mind when we got news that she has left was relief.  she no longer need to struggle with the daily morphine patches and jabs, the pain that wouldn’t go away and being physically asleep but mentally awake. no one will know how much pain she was in and no one can take the pain on her behalf.

she did mention to us when we visited her at her home 2 months ago that she was more fortunate than most people cause she knows when her time is up. she had time to do all that she wanted and get prepared for the day.

and now she is at the end of her road.

i had a friend who asked me on the food quality of joo mak at the 4th storey of beauty world cause there was a groupon offer. i confessed that i’ve never stepped into the restaurant before cause it’s the place where i have lunch everyday and the last thing i want to do is to go there and have dinner too. lol!

anyway, i was tempted to try after reading the positive reviews by the owner of hollyhoque. (: so we did one saturday after work. we went into the relatively empty restaurant at 1430 and were relatively skeptical. the guy who served us was quite humorous and that made the service level up a few notches. impossibly horrendous service is showing up everywhere these days, anyway,

much raved about korean restaurant. (:

empty looking restaurant at almost 3pm

i wanted to do some bbq but the the lunch partner was unwilling. so we asked for recommendations and wished for the best to be served.

food was delivered with a trolley and here’s the complimentary side dishes that came with all orders. i have zero idea what some of the food were except the bean sprouts, kimchi and veggie. yes, i’m not good with nameless orders. X: despite not knowing most of the ingredients, we finished everything. the side dishes are yummy! 6:

soup. it’s like a must order every time i dine with anyone. we opted for tofu instead of seafood. i love the texture of the tofu! yummilicious! ok i’ve started to run out of adjectives by now. X:

the one thing i’ve never fancy has to be seafood. and i hate the smell of the saba fish every time someone orders this at the food court near our place. we had no choice but to order this cause the chicken set got sold out or something. the fish served by joo mak has a similar fishy (some people would label it as fresh seafood) smell, but i braved my senses and took a bit of the fish after he commented that it tasted good. it didn’t change my initial idea of saba fishes but the meat leaves a sweet aftertaste in the mouth. still, fishes with bones are not for me. i’d rather stick with my chicken or pork.

my order!

my love for rice is never ending. and i love the texture of my bimbimbap! 6: ok i’m feeling hungry thinking about it again. X: it’s a vegetarian bimbimbap btw and it was very very good. only down side was i ate too much of the other stuff and i couldn’t finish it. ):

we spent a total of $35 for 2 pax which i felt was pretty affordable. but if you ask me if the food tasted authentic, i really have zero idea cause i’ve never been to korea, how to compare?! ):

year end frenzy returns again. this year (like all other years) just zoomed by without us noticing. and now it’s time for the xmas gift exchange shopping. truth to be told, i would prefer to know who i’m getting the gift for rather than getting a generic $20 budget present for that someone out there. cause it will always be a chore for me to get a present for a guy. -_-”

anyway mini presents for the ladies in my branch:-

cute max kitty in wrapper! (:

stamped with the individual names! (:

i have to admit that i’m biased but i can’t be giving a kitty chocolate lolli to a guy right? sorry bicycle, for not giving you one of these. or maybe i should? hmm..

the rest of the pressies are waiting to be wrapped up but i’m so laaaaaaaaaaazy. although there are not many to be done. inertia in me.

it’s the crazy cny rush again once xmas is over. praying hard for smooth transactions!

幾天前我幫了個客戶在提款機做了轉賬。 事後，客戶要我幫他在紙上用華文寫下之前的步驟， 我才發現我的母語程度已經退步到無法回頭的境界。 每一個漢字我都需要想好久， 想到了也不一定寫得出來。

雖然說天天會以華語跟周遭的人溝通， 但是事實上， 漢字已經靜悄悄的從我的生命中離去。現在要寫漢字， 也不過以電腦的拼音代替。有時候，真不能不感慨科技帶來的利輿弊。

初院生涯過了， 教育制度也讓母語成了過去式。

想親近母語， 也只有偶爾看看書， 看看電影。

在朋友的大力推薦下， 我們看了《那些年，我們一起追的女孩》。

電影勾起了一些些的回憶， 但也讓我感嘆年輕愚蠢的人生。

在每個人生的階段，每個人的看法都不同。 但是在成熟了， 回頭想想， 可能會覺得無比的幼稚或後悔。

鐵定的事實是， 它不能重來。

它是永遠的回憶。